the Missingness !

Holla ! I'm back ! Huh, its been a long long time since I updated my blog aite ? Now, Im back. Spending a lot of my time hanging out at mamak. Due to the free wi-fi. Hari2 sy lpak mamak. Mamak mmg best. Erm, still waiting for my syg to come to KL. I'll wait for you syg. NO matter how long it will take. Urm, sorry if Ive been sleeping these few days eh baby. Quite unwell. In fact, I guess, I'm more sick than I thought. Im taking my pills baby, trust me.

Syg,

No matter how many obstacles stand in my way,

I'll keep moving on,

To my dreams, to my reality,

You really mean the world for me,

Frankly speaking, you are my life, my soul rite now,

Honestly, I'm missing you syg,

Deeply and crazily I do,

Its like the world without the sun,

Its like breathing with no air,

You are my oxygen, my sun, and everything,

I'll even sacrifice my soul if that's what it takes to buy some time with you,

I dream to stay longer than ever with you,

Forever maybe ?

To love you is like a dream come true,

To be loved by you makes me complete,

To feel the softness of your touch,

To see the cute smile of yours,

To treasure your hug and kisses,

Is like a neverending dream,

If this is a dream,

Pls god, dont wake me up !

I MISS YOU DEAR ! TRULY DO !

i am Me !

Holla ! Here I am ! Sorry for not updating my blog. Thx to Paan, I'm not able to use the internet for these few days. Lets recap what I've done. Urm, on Saturday, I went to the MassComm interview at UiTM Shah Alam. It went pretty well I guess. Urm, my syg is not there to support me coz she's going to Singapore. Huhu. But she did give me a good morale boost. Thx syg ! I'll remember that. Huhu. After the interview, I slept due to no txting the whole day. Eventually woke up just to answer her call. Yeay ! She's back on home soil. Glad to hear from her though. She's fine but tired. Urm, on that night she had a fever. So, nothing much !

Sunday ! Relaxation day. Urm, she had a high fever ! OMG ! Im worried laa syg. Urm, she went to the clinic and end up with 8 pills ?! What the F. Syg, eat your medication on time aite. You got your MUET coming soon. Urm, sleepless night coz worried if she woke up in the middle of the nite. I wanna be there with her, but I can't. Sorry syg. Miss you. Eventhough, the txting activity being reduced due to your health, i dont mind. I love you and wanted you to get better soon.

Monday ! Haha ! Another sleepless night. She's fine in the morning. Dpt gayut kn syg? Best gle ! Watched the P.S I LOVE YOU movie on channel 413 Astro. A heartwarming movie. Love it ! The txting activity continues but not for long because the effect of not sleeping is haunting me. I slept from 3pm till 11pm. Wow ! Syg, im sorry sbb ta dpt txt u eh. Ngntuk sgt. Hope you are well. Urm, she txt me saying that she's restless. Urm, I'm not going to rest until she's really2 fine. God, help he recover fast. She got her MUET tomorrow.

Awk;

Sy ta kesah un. Jnji awk sehat k. Txt or call kurg pun ta pe. Sy fhm. Sy syg awk tau. Gudluck for MUET Speaking. Just speak k syg. U speak alot don't you. Hehe. Wish you all the best syg. Love you. Miss you greatly. Hehe.

So long, till the next post ! Daa.

P/S : I LOVE YOU ! You know that aite ?!

she's Leaving

Holla ! Currently sad. Sarah Nabila is leaving ! Syg, if I could make a wish, I'll just wish that you don't leave. But, I know that I don't have a magical lamp, a genie nor that I have magical powers. Those 2weeks with you is just unforgetable, memorable, and out of this world ! I love you, miss you and I will continue loving you even when you are gone. I'm still here, watching over you. Remembering our moments. I'm just glad that I spend 2weeks with you. Syg, take good care of yourself. Remember me. Keeping txting, chatting, and webby aite. I'll miss you. I won't be the same. Eating my lunch, dinner alone. Without you. Can't see your smiles again. Can't hear your laughter again. And can't feel your hug and kisses for atleast next month syg !

During this 2weeks, we hangout together, go out on a date, lunch & dinner together, joking with each other, share secrets, overnight, go to cinema together and so on. You taught me about sushi aite syg and I'm loving it. I'll sacrifice anything just to buy some time with you. You know that didn't you ? You even saw me bowl, and I lost. Haha ! We went to karaoke even that I don't like to sing. You sing for me. You even went out on a date, just the two of us aite ? Changing buses, even when the bus is awful, you were with me and seriously, that touched my heart. You just proved to me that money is not everything. And I did prove it too aite syg ?

We were very very close kn ? Those moments will never be erased. I'll be remembering that sweet lips of yours and your warming hugs. You make me addicted to you syg. Really do ! I keep coming for more. Even if I ran out of cash, I'll be in Kluang ! Just for you. You taught me that, if you love someone, you are willing to sacrifice anything aite ? You are unique B. Very different from those girls from my past. Trust me when I say that I love you with all my heart and soul. You are my world now. You mean alot.

Take care Sarah Nabila, I'll Miss You.
No Goodbye, Only Smiles !
- Khalis Faiz -

Sarah Nabila

Sarah Nabila, the name that I kept thinking and missing ! Syg, during the 48hours you are with me, it was the best 48hours of my life ! I swear ! I've never been with a person that long and trust me, I'm never bored. I'm glad, happy and felt loved. The things that we do together was just unforgetable syg. Really2 in love with you. Now I'm really2 sure that you are the one for me. The one who can take good care of my heart. Like I said, you are my new world. Your kiss makes me wild and your hug keeps me warm. You are not beautiful, nor that you have a perfect figures, but believe me syg, I don't care ! I just care that you have a pure heart which I can love and a wonderful smiles that kept me smiling. You even cried when I'm sad and you were restless when I'm sick. That act had touched my heart and I've realized that God had sent me an angel with a pure attitude and honest heart to take care of me when I'm dying. And I thanked God for that. I'm glad that you are with me syg. You handle me well. You know how to touch my heart and makes me deeply in love with you ! Sarah Nabila, you should know that, in sick and in pain, in good and hard times, in summer or winter, I'll always love you, miss you and need you to be by my side. Yes, I do ! I do swear that I'll never leave your side as long as you are with me. Syg, i couldn't thank you enough. And I think that I've run out of ideas on how to express my love for you because it's too too much ! Love you !

Lots of Love,
Muhd. Khalis Faiz

Meor Syafiq Meor Nazir

Holla ! This is a post dedicated to my friend, my brother, Meor ! Meor, u still has your friends behind you. To support you. When you took those pills, do you ever think of your friends ? Family ? Lecturers ? We all has been asking you what's wrong. Do you ever answer us ? You laugh, smile with us. But, deep inside you are suffering. I always ask you, to pour your secret to me. To ease your pain. To lift your burden. Yet, you never did confide in me and your friend. When you overdosed yourself, you didn't realize that infront, behind, besides you, there was your friend. Helping you, carrying you to the car to take you to the hospital. We are praying for your safety. When you are in the emergency room, getting treatment, Jang, Bell, Apek, Sarah and me waited for you. Waited to know whether you'll live or not. Meor, we shed our tears. Atleast, I do ! I'm in pain just looking at you, you were tied, you were suffering. What happened to you Meor ? I'm always there, always will ! We are here for you. When they transferred you to ICU, you didn't realize that we were there. Your friends came to visit you, early in the morning. In collage, they were praying Meor. They were ! When you open your eyes, you did see Apek rite ? It is he who took care of you. He looks after you laa Meor. He was there all along, accompanying you to Alor Gajah, to Hospital Besar Melaka, in ICU. Just waiting for you to open your eyes. Be grateful, during your sick times, we were there. Pls realize that ! You do owe them some appreciation. Don't owe me anything, I'm not a good friend. Thank them. Pls. In hopes that when you had a chance, pls read this !

the New sun !

Holla ! Hey, Im back ! Haha. Can't sleep again today. Wondering why. Urm, maybe because Im going out today. The second date. Wow. In a space 3-4 days, we are going out again. Yeay ! Yesterday was awkward. Syg, I trust u to keep my secret aite. I promise to you that I'll be healty again in no time. Yesterday, I've realized something, my heart has open up again. It beats faster than ever. I already feel better. The broken hard has already been mend and now I'm going to wrtie down a name in my heart ! Sarah Nabila bt Saidon ! Yes, its you syg. Really do ! I'll hold on to your words till death. You've promised me. And I've promised you. Haha ! Let us keep our deal till the end aite B. I do love you, really do !

is there ANY happy ending ?

Holla ! I tend to get jealous when I read novels or love stories. There will always be a happy ending. My life has been cut short. My diseases is spreading fast enough. Im not being myself currently. Sitting in this room that I will have to leave sometime around. That time is near enough. My trip cut short. Im not happy ! Im quite sad. There is no happy ending for me. I used to think that Im unique. That Im not like anyone else. But the fact is against me, Im not going to moan. Im not so special. That means that Im just the person who bring joy to anyone. I create laughter on a sad face. I invent happiness in a lonely heart. I'll sacrife everything to anybody, just to make them happy. Just to make them live on, carry on and be joyful. I'll rejoice in someone's happiness. Please, at least be sincere with me. Am I not the only person who makes u full ? Can u find another word or quotes that will make me feel different. After all, I never like to be compared. I never like to be like anyone else. Till then, Im running again !

the Courage !

Holla ! Today's mood ; slow & down ! Obviously, Im not the person who is the first to gave that someone the courage and the will to live on. And obviously, that someone gets stronger and stronger. Collecting all the strength that she could so that her will to survive and carry on is strong enough. Im glad to have been the factor that she lives on while inside Im dying. The past will always be the past. But, I felt down because it is not what I wanted to read and I wanted to know. Im going back to KL early I guess. So long and goodbye Malacca. God, give me the energy to survive, loan me some time before You take me away. Let me feel true happiness for a moment and I will walk away as a happy man. All the "I bring her joy" stuff. Im honoured. Thx. You can count on me to bring u up when u are down. You used to be stronger back there, you used to be full and happy with joy. Now? Till then, let me be me, and do what I do best. Running away ! I will die someday aite. - KhalisFaiz -

when I'm gone !

When I'm gone,
I'll go as a happy man,
Knowing you makes me glad,
Being with you is just priceless,
I'm eternally happy with you.

With a simple introduction,
We chat, we talk, we text,
Then,
We just clicked together,
Since that day,
We were together,
Your voice makes me smile,
Your hugs do bring me comfort,
Your kiss brings me the sensed of being loved.

Sarah Nabila,
Even if I'm good in poetry,
Good in throwing words,
It wouldn't happen if its not for you,
It would just be meaningless without you,
All my words, are for you,
Straight from my heart,
Directly to yours !

When I'm gone,
Do put your smiles on,
Make me laugh,
Don't be sad,
Be cheerful,
Thats the least that you could do for me !

How long will it take for you to forget me ?
How long will my friends forget me ?
How long will the world missed me ?

I hope they do remember me,
Because,
I do not like to just die in vain !

the Sickness !

Holla! Im sick ! Yeay ! Haha. Urm, a lil bit unwell for this past 2days. Yeay! Lpas je blk dari dating arituh trus dmam. Ntah ap2 ntah. Haha. Luckily, I've got a good good friends here to take care of me. Yeah, Im lucky. Haha! Urm, nothing to do today, besides sleeping, eating, txting, calling and so so on. Urm, do miss my B so so so much yeah ! Urm, cant wait for makan2 time everyday. Urm, actually, for her, i ate medicine on time. Everyday. Amazing achievements for me! Hooray. Urm, that date went well and she was so so cute. Damn! Grrr. And syg, miss na dgr u karaoke lg. She taught me how to eat sushi and now, Im addicted. It is because of you syggg. Urm. wlupun rushing, Im happy. Love that bau2 thingy sygg. Your hug comforts me, your touch makes me warm. Your kiss makes me surprised and loved. Haha! Till wednesday, my agenda is easy, sleeping, sleeping, eating, eating, txting, txting, calling, calling, haha ! Till then, daaa.

the Day !

Holla! Sitting at Kasturi balcony sometimes great. With the cold wind, accompany my 3 friends; Wak, Jang, and Raouf. Huh. I didn't sleep coz of the nervouse feeling. Haha! This is my sacrife to wake them up! Yeay. Yesterday was fun! Yes. I suppose to go to futsal with these guys, but it got cancelled due to the s**t f**k-ing abg kete sewa! We were waiting for him from 3.30pm - 5.30pm and he didn't turned up! Damn you! Before that, I had lunch with my Sayang and Jang. Yes. 3straight day I went to eat with her. Thats great! Syg, i love u more. I hope today will turn up to be a great day! I wish it would. After all, this is suppose to be MY happy moments with you kn syg? Deleting my sad thoughts and replacing them with happy ones. Urm, arr, urm, arr. Lets do some exercise. With my eyes so sleepy, I could see a great view of sun rise and 2girls washing their car. Hehe. Wet gurls. Yup! Jgn mrh syg, rezeki! Till then! Daaa.

the Agenda

Holla! Im back. Courtesy of Ruzaini because lending me his laptop and also broadband while he's out for the Tasawwur paper. Haha! Thx again. Im here in Lendu and believe me, the 1st day was worth it because everyone greeted me as if I was gone for 2years. Haha. Then, finally, I get the chance to me her face 2 face and it was like a fantasy comes true. Haha. She's even cuter when I see her upfront. Haha. Syg, I promise I won't run k. Urm, just as I arrived at Lendu, I went straight ahead to mamak bcause Shad, Jang, Itik, Faris, Blur, Azza was waiting for me there. Haha. Lucky me, Sarah Nabila came along. At the first sight I saw her, her face was fine. Then, I thought she was angry with something, but later on she explained to me that she was so tired. Haha. Cian u kn syg? Kne berjalan ke sane ke mari na buat keje. Btw, syg, thx for the necklace. Haha! That's all for that day.

Now, here's the agenda for the next few days.

FRIDAY;
Sleeping. Sleeping. Sleeping. Wake up, sembahyang jumaat. Eat. Eat. Eat. Smoke. Smoke. Then, futsal. After futsal, went back to UiTM, took a shower then rest. Rest. Rest. It's an easy day aite?

SATURDAY;
Wake up, take a shower, get ready because Im going on a date ! For the first time with my syg. Yeay ! Even now, I cant wait. Ish2. Going out with B, Faris, Azza, Wak, Doy, Jang and maybe a few others. Haha!

SUNDAY;
Sunrise to sunset : SLEEP. Thx.

Now, Im waiting for the TESL to finish their exam then I want to eat !!! I've to wait for her. Im hungry rite now. So hungry!! Haha.