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Saturday, May 29, 2010

day Four .

Tomorrow, you'll be back. Yesterday, you aren't online. Today, miss you so much, it's much much more worse than yesterday. Come back faster. As soon as you are back. Txt me! Pls Pls. Miss my pandaaa so much!

day Four.
For now, the pain of missing you is much worst,
I have to admit that you are the first,
That I feel the missing-you thirst,
This is more than just the feeling of lust,
Oh, Sunday come at last.

I'm not lonely,
I'm just longing for company,
The company that I long for,
Is the hand of yours,
Stare of your eyes,
Smile of your lips,
and,
Soft of your voice.

Sunday is coming,
Time for me to start smiling,
Leave away the falling,
Start to happy-jumping,
I'm not the type that's crying,
But, its you that I was hoping,
to come back at long-lasting.

I'm hoping for that I could see you,
Instead of losing you,
because,
This is our only chance,
to meet,
Only because,
once again,
the Distances will part us as usual.

Gosh, it's tomorrow
- khalisfaiz -

think about it .

* click on the picture to enlarge it *
think . react wisely .

am i ?

i am not poetic . i am just expressing my feelings .
i am not Shakespeare . i am just khalisfaiz .
i am not good in English . i just type it and accidentally it sounds good .

Friday, May 28, 2010

tumblr ?

tumblr me :
http://khalisv.tumblr.com/

day Three .

Love, I'm so happy yesterday. You managed to online using wi-fi in Jakarta and using your psp also. Although it is not much, but I appreciated it syg. It does do me wonders by reducing my miss-you sickness, not by much, but atleast I'm glad that you're fine.

day three .
yeah, its the same today dearie,
i'm sleeping through the day because by that way,
i can atleast makes the time flies faster,
you were fine and i'm glad,
i'm still missing you today and as always,
i'm going crazy here.

i'm just going to hang on till Sunday,
hoping that it will be a great day,
because you'll be back and i could say;
that i'm now in love with you more and more; day by day.

we've never been separated like this before,
that's the main reason i miss,
i miss your laughter and act of childish,
even though, it irritates me more,
but, it can makes me smile at least.

i'm sorry if i've hurt you,
i apologized if i've made your heart shattered into pieces,
because, i only wanted the best for you,
now,
do come home and i will not bother to push you,
to make you change,
because now i've realized that,
i can't afford to be apart from you anymore,
do stay with me,
and i promise that i'll stay for you,
even if you were YOU.

GOSH, 2days to go, i miss you !
- khalisfaiz -

Thursday, May 27, 2010

day Two .

Urm, i cant reach you by the phone because it's expensive. I can't connect with you by facebook because you aren't online. I can't shout to you because you are far far away. SO, i just hope that you read this when you got back. Sincerely, from the bottom of my heart to the tips of my fingers.

day two.
i've just realize that i can't be whole without you,
i can't wake up in the morning without you,
i can't sleep without calling you first,
i can't smile because you are not with me to smile together,
i'm bored without txting you,
i'm alone without hearing your sweet voice.

it just came to my sense that,
maybe we need this distances,
maybe we need this silences,
maybe we need this loneliness,
maybe we all of this,
because,
by then, we will realize that,
we need each other so bad,
sygg, we just compliment each others.

this i wanna say to you,
if you were back,
i'll do anything just to see you,
i'll do everything to hold you,
because,
even we've been 3months apart,
the added distances and silence,
makes me cry and longing for you more and more,
you know what i said is true,
you know the REAL me.

i miss you badly sayang ! really do ! hope you are thinking bout me !
3days to go, so, i'll try to make it to sunday .
till then, take care LOVE .
GOSH! i'm going crazy here.
- khalisfaiz -

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

day One .

we have been apart for 3months plus plus . but we never stop txting, calling each other . now, you are away for 5days and it will be hard for me to txt or call you . Argghh !

day one .
looking out my window and staring at the sky,
watching each and every plane that crosses the bright sky,
searching for a signal that you maybe in one of those things that can fly,
feeling disappointed that i can't say goodbye.

i know that you must be crying,
and im not to wipe to tears that are flowing,
im sorry that im such a weakling,
that could pick up the phone when its ringing,
when clearly, you are the one who's been calling.

dear, i'll be missing you each and every day,
waiting for you to come back on Sunday,
remember that i'm loving you night and day,
so, till then, i have nothing more to say,
except that i wish all the fun and play.

GOSH, i'm missing you laa sygg .
- khalisfaiz

Thursday, May 20, 2010

short .

I MISS YOU , I MISS YOU , IMISS YOU
I LOVE YOU , I LOVE YOU , ILOVE YOU
I NEED YOU , I NEED YOU , I NEED YOU

you are the best ! i know you can do it . let's pray together .

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

ohhh , girlF

what ? girlF ? who ? why ? she called me her boyf , so , its my turn to react actually . HAHA . so , here it goes . it seems that its been ages since im poetic . so , i apologize beforehand for any un-poetically words .


im not perfect . im not the kind of guy that you want to be with . but , the fact that you accept me , makes me miss you soo damn much now . yeah , im not used to be left alone without my girlf . my heart will start to waiver , will start to doubt and will start to feel the loneliness . but , with you , all those stuff didn't happen . i tend to get irritated when i see a couple walking infront of me , holding hands , smiling . but , in my heart , i said to myself that , i will get my own chance , someday , somehow . rite sygg ?

i'd do anything to make you smile . i tried not to give you any false hope by soothing you not to buy those stuff . i used to rub your heads when your eyes goes crazy by just looking at pretty and expensive dress . i tend to get angry at you , but you just need to wait . then , i'll smile again and makes you laugh .

you used to make that weird faces to make me calm and laugh non-stop . you give me your love and undivided attention . you gave me your eyes and your shoulder so that you can cry for me and let me cry on you .
thx syg .

" you gave me the keys to your heart , so that i can bury it deep into my soul "

" and i gave you my glass heart , so that you can keep it with you forever "

Sunday, May 16, 2010

peace of mind

see things differently, see things from another angle, see things from a different prospective, and you'll see the sun is behind the clouds and the rain is in the clouds
- khalisfaiz -

Sunday, May 9, 2010

glass he-art

I have a heart made of glass. It used to gloss like any other glass. Shines brightly. In that tiny heart, I put plenty of things in it. The roses of love, the fire of hatred, the water of loneliness, and the rainbow of friends. I kept my glass heart in the hands of whom I thought an angel, but in the end it turns out the angel was the Reaper.

One day, fate steps in. The one who is holding my glass heart drops it. It shattered on the floor of despair, broken into millions of tiny pieces. I suffered, all of my flowers, water and rainbow fade away, leaving only the fire. The fire which consumes me. I loathe her, I hate her, I despise her.

Few months later, came a young kid. Willingly, she kneel down on the floor, picking up the pieces of my glass heart. She brings me happiness, she carves a smile on my wooden face, she makes my tears flowing when she's in pain. She colors up my black surrounding with plenty of color. She awakens me from my sorrow, despair.

Slowly, I begin to know how to walk again, how to jump, how to run and importantly, how to feel.

My glass heart may not be the same again. It takes time to stick back what used to be shattered. Pieces by pieces. She'll help me. Guide me back.

Now, the flower has blossomed into roses. The water is pure. The rainbow had reappear. Thanks to her.

It's been 7months. Its been going on smoothly. I'm still mending but at least, Im not alone.

SARAH NABILA