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Thursday, June 24, 2010

i wish .

you were my pulse .
you are my blood that runs in my veins .
you are my tears that flows from my eyes .
you are the wrinkles that forms when i laugh or smile .
you are my backbone that supports me .

and ,

i wish you will stay that way .
you create the smiles on my face .
you make me shed my tears when you're sad .
you make me bleed when you said goodbye .
you make my heart beats faster when i hear your voice .

but ,

if you were gone and you don't miss me .
that's the sign that i should go .
if eternity is plenty then it's still not sufficient .
when the time comes ,
you'll fly away .

therefor ,

promise me that you'll fly back to my arms .
promise me when you are ready .
you know that i'll always be here .
even if my body is gone .
the memories is still there .
my heart is still yours .
even if it stops beating .

so ,

i'm not a good person but i'm loyal .
i'm a cheater but i can't cheat myself .
i DO love you . i DO need you and i DO crave for you .
all that i'm saying is ,
i may not be perfect but YOU make me perfect and whole .
no other person can do that .
believe me .

- khalisfaiz -


the Pain .

hey hey hoi, im home !
what ?
yes , that the truth.
why ?
the definition of hell is underestimated when the orientation starts .

overall , i've stayed there for 2days and my temper went crazy .
i know it's very tiring mentally and physically .
but,
the stress is so overwhelming .
the kids called facilitator there is somewhat not human .
not criticizing anyone but the way they act and talk ,
they shouldn't be a facilitator in the first place .

so, decided to skip the whole orientation thing .
when i've attended the important tour and speeches .
without any permission, i'm gone from that place .
this is mainly because ...
if i stayed there for any longer ,
my temper will start to explode and things will get messy .

so, here i am and will be here until Sunday .
so, let's enjoy the moment that I had .


Sunday, June 20, 2010

so Long , goodbye .

Hey hey hey , i'm off to somewhere .
you know where that somewhere is .
so, this is my last post until i got back from the big adventure .
this is the new chapter of my life .
this is where i'll begin my adventure to write my future .
the future , the ambition that i long for .
the happiness will not be here now .
but , it will soon come ,
someday .

to you, the person that i most adore ,
sarah nabila .
GOD knows how much i LOVE you .
and GOD knows how much i OWES you for this .
but GOD also knows how much i'm nervous and scared .
we'll be pursuing out dreams now ,
the same future that we planned together .
so, stick with me, be my backbone and watch me do this .
there's a few reason why i'm doing this .
the most obvious one is for YOU .

to friends that i entertains me most ,
i'll be gone ,
but no for long .
you guys knows how lazy i am .
so, we'll meet again .
not as often as usual ,
but i'll be back before you guys can spell :
somersault-on-ice-then-fall-into-the-lake-of-Mississippi !
HAHAHAHA .

dAaaa you alls ! will be back to post some more .

Thursday, June 17, 2010

you'll never get back .

there are plenty of things that you will never get it back .
of course there's the stone that you throw .
the things / stuffs that you've sold .
plenty more .
but
i'll let you think back and remember the past .
there are things like memories .
you can't get it back when you missed it .
the sincere laughter .
you'll never get it back the same way that you did first time .
talking bout time ,
you can't get back the time .
you live for the moment and the next moment arrives .
the moment before will be the past .
the point is ,
whatever moments that you've had ,
do cherish it .
even if it's sad .
because , that moment will be your history .
the history that you'll never get back .

think about it .
- khalisV-

Wednesday, June 16, 2010


The squad that I support in the FIFA World Cup 2010 .
So, whatever happens, I'll support the Daeguk Warrior always .
Mainly because of their hardwork, running, rushing up and down the field .
Second, because of Park Ji-Sung, the Captain .

karaoke .

thanks to Ijat , Enol , Khairi , Wan for a splendid sing-till-your-voice-is-gone time ! HAHAHA . well, im broke actually, so, thanks a lot to Ijat for letting me used his free voucher . SO, what rhymes with free ? FUN of course . Sing few songs due to my lateness . Huhuhu ! Always be my baby ( david cook ) , I'm Yours ( jason mraz ) , Kau & Aku ( aizat ) , Jika Kau Pergi ( imran ajmain ) and other songs as well . I'm not a good singer ! That's why I go to GreenBox karaoke . HAHAHA . Officially, my throat is sore and voice is almost gone . SO, time to take my nap and when I wake up , got plenty of things to be settled . Till then , SO long !

plus plus ; am sorry sygg, i'm pretty much beaten up, SO, the mood is not there . * i DO love YOU *
plus plus 2 ; UPDATED my blog with new looks and widgets . * still more to come *
plus plus 3 ; 500days of Summer , The Notebook and Love Actually is great . * love love love *

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

heavy-iron heart .

im going .
where ?
im off to Unisel .
what ?
yeahh, i'll be gone .
why ?
im continuing my study .
what course ?
Dip. in TESL .

that's a short conversation between me and myself .
so, let me tell you something .
on 20th of June, i'm off to Unisel .
finally, i'm continuing my study .
set my mind to take TESL . which i doubt myself .
why did i doubt myself ?
first, i don't know whether i'm that good in English .
second, i don't know whether i have the same motivation as before .
so, there's no excuses now .
i'm going because i wanna write my future .
because, every story must have a beginning .
and my story , my future will starts here .

to my deariee girlfie ,
i'm not going to war . i'm just off to study .
to fulfill what i need to fulfill .
to be a person not a thing .
it might not be the same but i'm still me .
the one who still needs you .
i'm the one who still seeks you .
so, it's going to be hectic .
but , i'll sort it out quickly .
do remember that , i'm not the type of student who studies all the time .
i'm a laid back person , so you'll have to remind me all the time .
remind me , why i do all this .
and , keep remembering that , i LOVE you .
no matter what and where .

rules and regulations .

the rules and regulations for wives & girlfriends during the FIFA World Cup 2010 .


this is just FUNNY . plain JOKES .
click on the picture to ENLARGE it .
take note okay ?


Monday, June 14, 2010

world cup !

first of all, let me list down the teams that I support .

1 . South Korea
2 . England
3 . Mexico
4 . Algeria

- do note that the my main priority is South Korea -

Hahaha , the world cup fever is ON . so ON .
The first World Cup in Africa soils .
Say no to RACISM , yes to FAIR PLAY !
so, support you teams and have fun watching .

*ohhhhh, africa !*

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

down , drown .

let me think straight first .
when i quit, you were the one who criticizes me right ?
for the whole 3months, you didn't look me right in the eyes .
you didn't talk to me .
i'm a failure am i ?
did you ever stop and think how i felt ?
i've reach the new low . demoralized .
heart broken .
you think that i'm not disappointed with myself ?
i'm thinking of leaving or maybe suicide .
but i think of the others .

you are the one that i look up to .
we share the same nature .
the same ego .
but i do respect you .
pls, look me and say that you believe in me .
pls, give me your support .
don't show that you're ashamed of me .

yeah, your friend's children is far more successful than i am .
so what ?
i'm your own son , your flesh and blood .
your future .
the one that you brought up with your own sweat and tears .
please , if you don't believe in me .
how am i suppose to believe in myself ?

if you don't want to support me .
it's easy , just see me like this .
don't just all critique , all talks .
i'm your own SON for god sake .
am i that useless to you ?
am i that worthless to you ?
if I do, take a knife and stab me .
kill me .
like you've kill my spirit and dreams !

si buaya ; crocs .

hey hey hey . mari bercerite ttg crocs . wahh ! crocs ? yup yup . crocs yg dikatekan haram itu . hehehe . so, aku just na mmperjelaskn lg hal crocs nie . bkn na mencetuskn spekulasi atau memihak kepade crocs . tp crocs neh best, ringan jek klu pkai . itulah sebetulnye . jom2, kite amek crocs yg ad dan perhati lambangnye btul2 . nie ade example gmbr yg dipetik sepanjang aku meng'google'kan diri td . mencari fakta2 yg bernas dan tepat . cewahh !


aku pun tatau la gmbr kt atas nehh crocs yg ori ke tak . tp try korg google logo crocs . then pix yg akan kua adelah seperti ini .

tgk ye btul2 . smpai juling mate korg .
ade la perbezaan kt yg nie dgn yg atas tuh :

1. mulut crocs yg kt atas tuh terbukak, yg bwk neh tertutup jek .
2. crocs yg atas tuh, bijik mate die, pndang atas

kdg2, manusia imaginasi tinggi. terlebih tinggi smpaikn nmpk bukan2 . jd , sy tinggalkan anda utk berfikir . jd, fikirlah sebaik-baiknya . sekian, terima kasih !

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

hey boredom .

hey boredom, can we be friends ?
sure ? thx !
peeps, meet my new friend boredom .
boredom is my new best buddy .
we're going to be best friends now .
BFF forever !

lalala, oh, what am i mumbling about .
thx to mr/miss boredom here,
i've known mr/miss crazy .
do add mr/miss crazy in FB yaaa .

OMG ! i'm mumbling again aren't i ?
sheet ! now now , lets get serious .

activity 1 ( noon till evening ) :
online my facebook ( / )
sleep ( / )
facebook again ( / )
txting with sarah nabila ( / )
quarrel a lil bit ( / )
sleep again ( / )
* jyeahh, thts my 1st activity for yesterday *

activity 2 ( night till now ) :
wake up ( / )
hangover a lil bit ( / )
spy for food ( / )
take my shower ( / )
fill in my Unisel forms ( / )
go out and beg for money ( / )
* unisel ? yeahhh riteee ! *

i've just completed my unisel forms .
waiting to pay the fee .
then , off I go to the campus .
wish that by the time i'm there ,
i could say goodbye for good to boredom and crazy !
for the time being , im gonna chat with them .
goodbyee u olllsss !

Monday, June 7, 2010

you shouldn't .

you know what ? you shouldn't say those things .
i know that i'm really really really bad in the relationship thing .
i've hurt you badly in the past .
you just awaken my past phobia .
the way you said it is the same exact word that i've heard before .

" sy hnye ad sekeping hati, tp knape rmai btul na pecahkn hati tuh ? "

i don't ask for anything from you except that ,
i ask you to be patient and accept me just the way i am .
love me for what i am .
you shouldn't say that without knowing the truth .

" ad bende yg sy ta gtau awk, sbb sy pun ad maruah na dijage "

you ask for forgiveness,
which on another day, any other circumstances,
i would gave it to you easily .
but , not this time .
this time, you have to earn it .
there's a thing called respect .

maybe this is the time that you learn it .

plus plus ; the words in red , is my words .



Sunday, June 6, 2010

do you know her ?


she's the one who stole my heart .
she's the one who haunt me in my dreams .
she's the one who makes me whole .
she the one who i'm falling so hard for .
the one that i long and need .
the one that i care and guard with my present and future .
the one that i miss so bad .
and , she's the only one that i wanna be with .
she is SARAH NABILA bt SAIDON .

wake up .

hey, i need to wake up !
wake wake wake up .
i'm not sleeping nor that i'm dreaming .
maybe i'm a little bit dizzy or snoozing .
but , that doesn't change the fact that i need to wake the hell up .
open my eyes , see the people around me .
how joyful they are , how sad are they .
to see the colors of the world .
the shades of my background .
the horizon and the sunsets .

i need to realize that i'm now turning 21 .
not 16 or 17 neither am i 18 .
let go of the past , grab the present and write the future .
i know that i'll be with her in the future .
no matter what , she's my present and my future .
don't consider the past !
pls pls pls , you are Sarah Nabila .
they are my clicks , my friends and my family .
so , combine them together ,
they'll be my FUTURE .

Saturday, June 5, 2010

jalan sehala .

tgh2 pg bute, bile da on9, mcm2 org kite leh jmpe kn ?
haaa, time tgh on9 fb dgn ym laa aku jmpe si padie nehh.
leh lak borak2 kt ym lak kn ? ehem2 . masuklaa air dlm kepale masing2.
- padie mmg tersgt laa senget lau korg na tau laa -

jd, bermulalah entri terbaru, yg ke-3 pd hari ini.
tjuk dy " jalan sehala "

haaa, korg tau kn jln sehala tuh ape ?
ta kesah laa korg bwk moto ke , kete ke , lori ke , jln kaki pun boleyh gak !
mesti korg tau , jln sehala tuh ape kn ?
tau ta konsep jln sehala tuh leh diguna pakai dlm kehidupan sehari-harian korg !
mcmlaa dlm idup ak nehh . saksikan yee kwn2 sumee .

ak pun mcm org lain . lg spesifiklaa , cm laki2 lain kt lua tuh .
tp ak jenis yg ta tnjuk kt org lain ap perasaan ak .
ak ta merana cm org lain bile ta de org yg tsyg disisi .
sbb , ak da ad org yg tsyg !
wlupun dy jauh, nun di selatan tanah air malaysia . (perrghh)
jln idup ak tetap jln sehala .
ak ta menyimpang .
sbb time ak jln2 pun, ak ta amek simpang 4 .
ak jln trus je . tp ad la stop2 tpi jln .
sbb kt tpi jln tuh ad la jgak signboard2 yg ak kne bce .
signboard2 tuh da lame ad dgn ak, so, ak knela bce kn ?
wlupn ad gak stall2 tepi jln, mls laa na benti .
sepanjang bjln tuh pun, byk gak yg lambai2 .
mtk na tumpanglaa , mtk ak berhenti laa .
tp ak mls . sbb ?

HAA, sbbnye, klu ak berhenti .
bile la ak na smpai penghujung jln kn ?
klu ak tmpangkn org lain , bile lak ak na jmpe org yg kt ujung jln tuh ?
lgpun, don't believe in strangers ! HAHAHA .
klu ak menyimpang , gerenti ad org potong ak .
bile org tuh potong ak , gerenti die smpai dlu kn ?
ahhh, ak mesti smpai dlu .
sbb ?

sbbnye, hujung jln tuhh,
ak punye jalan !


" btul ta padie ? "





futsal fun .

hey, Fairureshad, Ajwad, Ruzain, Izzat, Hafiz, Azwan, Affiq, Apek. Thx for the futsal joy. HAHA. it's quite fun actually. running, laughing, sweating, kicking, yelling, and shouting for 2 hours straight. wahh, it's an achievement for me. if it wasn't for Affiq's brother and friends, we'll be dead meat on the futsal pitch. HAHA. thx for Azwan because he managed to find a team to play with and for making a handful for saves from the blasting shots and we managed to lose with honor.

Obviously, we are getting old and couldn't last more than 20 minutes on that court. So, we kept changing players because of that. Personally, i'm sweating like pigs and managed to wet 2shirts that i brought with me. oh oh, don't forget the towel. HAHAHA.

In the end, i have a good laugh even though, crisis with her managed to dampen my spirits an make me sad. thx to shad, he managed to hit me hard and force me to smileeeee.

plus plus, thx everyone for a great night !
plus plus 2, sowiee deariee . i won't do it again.
plus plus 3, let's do it again !

i hold on to ...

i hold on to my past and present .
i hold on to you and your past also .
i hold on to friends and their friends also .
i hold on to my enemies .
i hold on to my family and their future .
so, i'll hold on to everything that i have and i ever have .



because, that's the only that is true enough for me to hold on to .

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

oh, future .

what can make you happy , will also make you sad .
the thing that can make you laugh , can also make you cry .
if yesterday was gloomy , it's not written that today will be shiny .
tomorrow will offer you a lot more chances ,
to redeem yourself for things that you've missed today or yesterday .
but , not all things can be redeem .
because , you'll have to make sure that every time you had your shot ,
grab it , nail it and keep it .
because , maybe and yet maybe ,
tomorrow , the same fate will never occurs again .

life could be predictable ,
at least the small things can .
life is simple ,
if you counts the tiny persona in life .
life is unpredictable ,
all the time .
life is hard ,
to those who choose the wrong path .

life is like a jigsaw puzzle ,
choose the right match and it'll fit ,
but , it takes time to finish it .
life is like a race ,
make sure you'll finish first .

life is not a thing ,
it consists of plenty of elements .
family ,
the one who'll watch your back even when you are small .
friends ,
the one who'll cherish every moments with you ,
laugh with you ,
share with you ,
even cry with you ,
or sometimes , NOT .
you ,
the one who decides which one is need ,
which one is desire .

life is like a box of chocolates,
you'll never know what you get .