the Return

Holla! I guess this will be the last update. It will took me maybe a week before I post something new here. Today, at 7.30pm, I'll be heading back to UiTM, the place I used to study. I'm there to pack all my stuff and bring it home. Haha! I've quit yet I'm still there! Mainly because, my syg is there and I hope I could just see her tonight. If she is free. Haha. Currently packing up my stuff which is not much. According to her, I'll be staying there until she finishes her final exam. Then, I'm free of UiTM Lendu. Gonna miss that place though. Hehe. It's been my 2nd home for 2years now. With a heavy heart, I hope that I'll be coming there back next semester. Pursuing another course. Urm, btw, she did tell me that her first paper was easy. Haha. So, I'm feeling happy for her. Her success is all that I want. Urm, even if it means that I've to bring her to dinner or so. Syg, I do miss ya! Can't wait aite. See u tonight.

P/S : I LOVE YOU !

the Confession

Well, here it goes again.

I confess,

that I'm in love,

in love with an angel,

that came to me,

in my time of need,

to help me up,

to not judge me for who I am,

but,

does she know who I really am ?

I confess,

I've made a lot of mistakes in the past,

that would never be forgiven by anyone,

no one would believe me if I ever tell the truth,

who I really am in the past,

is really something that would shocked her,

do I need to tell her ?

I confess,

that I'll take this secret with me till the day I die,

I hope that time is near,

because its a burden to carry,

too much for me to handle,

or would she just let me confess and accepted me ?

I confess,

I'm guilty for my sins,

I'm as dark as a devil,

but,

I've shown some remorse,

I wanna justify myself,

I don't want to be that guy anymore,

will she forgive me for not telling her earlier ?

I confess,

I'm afraid of losing her,

after she knows everything bout me,

I dont want to lose her,

not even for a while,

I wanna keep her close to me,

near to my heart,

so that she could know that I've repent,

should I tell her ?

syg, would like to hear a story ? About the past and the present. About a boy whose hope is fading, who need to be forgiven.

god, would you blame me ? I seek forgiveness since the time I commited the sins.

the Application day !

Holla! Im a lil bit moody today, but, after all, whats the point of being moody all the day rite? So, here it goes. Wake up without any txt on my phone. Kinda weird. So, I called that person and found out that she is still asleep! Haha! So, I continue my sleeping journey but just for 30minutes or so. Then, wake up and take a bath because I need to go to BSN to buy the UiTM application pin number. And the time is 3:45p.m! The bank close at 4:30! I need to hurry up. Haha! So, I have bought the pin number. Its time to apply! Haha. Oh, almost forgot. My B is currently studying for the whole day, because she has to sit for TESL final exam tomorrow! Good luck to all of TESL students. Haha! Urm, I've applied MassComm, Seni Lakon, Pengurusan Seni, Sains Sukan, Pengurusan Hotel, Pengurusan Pelancongan, Pengurusan Maklumat, Pentadbiran Awam. Huh! Almost all of the choices has something to do with Pengurusan yea. Haha! Now, Im waiting for her to maybe atleast chat or call. Hope she do fine for tomorrow. Good luck B! I miss ya! Love ya! Daaa.

don't Leave

Holla. Here I am. Updating my blog. Urm, after all the plans that I made yesterday, I just went to 1open house. Bcause I'm not feeling well. Haha! Urm, I do miss my b though. Not very much txting today. I'm not the same today, bcause after what happen last night, I felt like I'm a new person. I'm happy. I just hope that this time, it's for real, not just playing fool. Tonite, I'll be going to chat and webby with her puas2 bcause she'll be heading back to her study place. It's sad. I'm gonna miss her badly. I do hope that she'll okay with her examination coming really soon. In hopes that she will nvr forget me there. Haha! So long, I love u B. Gonna miss you.

Everday, when I woke up,

There you'll be,

Not besides me, but on my phone there will always be ur txt,

I do hope it continues,

I always hope that u'll never forget me,

I'll keep u in my heart,

Lock it and throw away the keys,

So that, u will always be there.

Heart u, Love u, Miss u B !

Sleepy

Holla, here I am. At 5:52 a.m. Not sleeping yet, but hell yeah, I'm very tired and sleepy. Just done webby with my syg. Haha! Yeah, I got a syg u noe. We've just gone through a weird conversations and finally both of us admit that we love each other. Haha! Its complicated but in a weird way, I'm attracted to her. Yeah, I'm falling hard for her. Urm, in hopes that when she did find a time to read this. I love her! Yes, I do.

The agenda for today;

As soon as I wake up, I'll reply a txt from B. After that, if its still early, I'm off to bed again. Then, around 12, I'll start going to the first open house. I got 4 open houses to go. So, I'll be spending the rest of my day, eating and wishing Selamat Hari Raya to all. Haha. In the night, I got a bbq party infront of my house. My friend, Ujen is planning all of it, so I'm just a guest. Urm, after all of the plan is done. I'm not off to bed. No matter tired I am, I'll find time to txt, chat and webby her. Yes! Just for her.

1st day of Raya !

Holla. Do you that Raya is suppose to be fun? But, unfortunately not for me. I guess I didn't get the Raya mood la. Urm, I've tried to embrace the fact that it's Hari Raya and I should cheer up and rejoice. Haha! But it didn't work. Damn! For the whole day, people come to my house. Ah, I buat open house da. Haha! Sorry, to those who I forgot to invie but nobody that I know were there. The menu at my house is, Nasi Dagang, Nasi Impit, Satay and kuih/biskut raya. Haha. That's all. Woke up around 7.15am. Thx to Shorty, I was able to wake up after just an hour of sleeping. Haha. Went to perform Raya prayer. After the khutbah, I went back home. Stop at the nearest 7Eleven store to buy 2packs of cigarretes. Nowadays, I tend to smoke a lot. Dunno why. Nk mati cpat kot. Haha.

As soon that I arrive home, went straight to the dining table and grab some foods. I was hungry. It was delicious. Haha. For the rest of the day, I sit at the living hall. Waiting for my brother's friend, my mum and dad collegue and a few relatives. It's been that way for the whole day. Ah, I've been txting with Shorty the whole day. Thx B! Sbb tman i. Haha. Now, I feel very tired and energy-less. Haha. So, bye for now! Tadaa.

the Shorty !

To You B !

Dear Shorty,
Even u are small,
U hve a big heart,
Plus with a big smile,
That can cover up ur shattered heart,
Don't show ur weakness,
Walk tall,
Remember that I'll always be there for you,
For now, and forever,
That's my promise,
Heart you dear Shorty,
Luv ya !

- your Guardian -

She's super cute. Super nice. We've a lot of things in common ya !

the breakup !

Holla. I'm finally getting out of a 4yrs relationships and it is very hard ! Damn hard. I can't feeling anything rite now. Weird. Not even the sad feeling getting over me. Haha. Well, I just wanna say that. For 4years, you have been great. You've helped me through and through tough times. I did remember it. Lately, you've become someone else. I'm not a robot for you to control and yes, I need my space. My time. I'm 20 ya! Please, do forgive me if I break your heart. But, it's been wayyy too long. You and I both agree that this is the best. Good luck in your future undertaking. You know who you are !

The Flirt Story

Holla. Under the request of Faris. I'll update this blog. For his sake only. This is a post where I'll tell ya about what I know of Faris Razman. I know that he's 18. I know that he's crazy and I know that the nickname Tacap does not suits him. Haha! The most important thing is that he reminds me of me when I'm at his age. He loves to flirt and fools around. It's cool to hangout with him. He's quite sensitive in such a way that only me could see. He gets scared easily If you don't believe me. Try scolding him. For sure, he'll run away. Haha. But, he is like my lil bro yaw. He's funny, not cute, laughable and maybe fuckable. Not that I'm gay but he used to get so many scars of passion if you know what type of scars I meant. Haha. Got the chance to 'mandi bunga' with him and it serves him right. Huhu! One more thing bout him that he tends to get all the nice and good looking gurls. I envy him for that. Azza, take good care of him aite. Faris, take good care of her. I know you won't make any of your past mistakes again. This is a special post, just for you. So, cherish it. Haha! Don't go flirting to much. Focus on your study dude. After raya, it's your time to shine. Prepare for the finals aite. Tke cre lil bro. Luv ya. Haha !

the Besties ep.2

Holla. Yet this is my another top 4. Haha ! This is their story.

Pidot - The twin of Doy. I used to call them Dodoy & Dodot. Haha ! They are seriously funny. They'll make you laugh whenever you are around one of 'em.

Apek - The Kapir. Sorry Apek ! The weird thing that I remember bout him is that he is Javanese yet he got that chinese look. For me, it's weird dow. Haha !

Jang - My laughing gas. I don't to inhale the gases to laugh. I just need to hear his laughter that will send my eyes to tears. Haha ! He's funny laaa !

Ruza @ Jenny - The owner of the room where I'm staying. He's a good lad. Funny. Modest and the owner of the lappy that I used to play PES & CS. Haha ! Thx Ruza !

the besties ep. 1

Holla. This is the 1st episod about my besties at UiTM. Haha! By far, this is the top 4. There's no difference with the next pix that I'll post later in the day. Let me tell you a little synopsis about the story.

Faris - He's like my lil' bro yaw ! Haha ! I'll always took care of him. He's a little bit childish yet funny and laughable (as told by Azza). He makes me remember what I am when I'm at his age. Haha !

Doy - The boy without any expressions. So funny to be around him. His kindness has touched me. He's my lil' bro too. So, don't bother disturbing him. I've warned you. Haha !

Shad - Supposedly, my junior. At school & at UiTM. Haha ! The slumberness of him makes me cool.

Wak @ Rais - The man who taught me Java language. He is tall. Truly ! Haha ! His story had me laughed the whole time I've been around him. Another nice and kind man. My ex-junior in DBS ! He's hot aite ?

Do wait for my next post ya ! Tata !

I'm a storyteller.

Holla. I consider myself as a storyteller. Don't know whether I'm a good story teller or not but I'd try to come up with the most fascinating story to tell you guys. Haha ! Today, I'm just going to lay down, surf the net, hear some music, watch some movies, and chat with some friends. It's going to be one hell of a day. Haha ! There's currently Danny, Shad, ME, Wak, and around 5 others in this level left and trust me when I say that, WE'RE BORED ! Haha ! Last night, while we're trying to get out from this UiTM prison, we got a free sermon from the PAKGUARD of UiTM. How dare they ask why aren't we going to TARAWIKH. It's unacceptable. They were the ones who didn't perform the tarawikh ! Hah ! They told us to went back to our block, after 10minutes of walking to the front gate, we were walking back to Kasturi. Shit ! I hate those kind of guards. Seriously, I hate 'em. Haha ! So, me and Wak just sit near the lake and take time off to think what we're going to do next. I'm considering, renting a car and just stay up all night around Malacca but there were just 2 of us, so the plan is officially rubbish. Haha ! So, Wak came up with the idea to went back to my room and just watch some movies. That is what we do all night long. Haha. Bye !

I Confess...

Holla, I have a few confessions to make.

1. I'm bored like hell.
2. I'm in need of cigarettes.
3. I did something irrational last night.
4. I miss those TESLians who went back home for Raya holiday.
5. I'm in blame for losing my friends.

Haha! I do miss those guys a lot. I'm like a big brother when I'm with them. :(

Tribute to TESL.

Hola. This is a special post to all of the TESL students. Ak tau xramai yg tau psl blog ak neyh. Tp diharapkn korg sme leyh bce! Klu ade umur yg pnjang, kemudian hari ketemu lg yaa! Haha! Sebagai tande peringatan kt beberape org :

Jang - The Mr President. Be happy. Kekalkn bujang anda.
Jenny - Sifu! Awek slalu kejar ko bai.
Meor - Jgn jd pemalas leyh x? Jgn slalu dgn cartoon jew.
Shad - Reggae party yeah! Jmpe ko kt cheras.
Wak - Slalu igt misi & visi kite. JAI HO !
Blur - Jgnlaa lmbt2 lg. Thanx for all the 'sticks' bro.
Ragu - Slalu ragu2 laa dgn ko neyh.
Madi - Meyh lpak BTR meyh!
Ipan - Homer! Haha. Nnti ak msg ko psl transfer window aite. Ap nme ko ek? Haha!
Pajun - Kte tgk Masked Rider len kli laa plak. Spread the love!
Fiqi - U are a nice kid doe!
Frankie - The FM addicts. Haha! Smoge bjaye Frankie Foo.
Nana - HeroGa. Timah. Haha!
Mubin - Kte lwn futsal len kli k.
Itik - Haha! Rokok abah sebatang! Huhu! Halalkn rokok2 sme k.
Tebes - Jgn dive lebeyh2 klu men futsal.
Doy - Best fren bro! Haha!
Pidot - Dodotku! Sengal! Thx for the rokok.
Suqus - Nnti ak suap2kn ko k.
Amir - Sarah? Sape Sarah?
Din - Jgnla slalu majuk! Haha!
Mang - Pose la weeiii!
Mosh - The serious guy.
Apek - Syg ko doe. Lpak KL jom.
Faris - Belon air satu! Haha! Jgn flirt2 jew. Degree mane ?
Am - Success slalu.
Torres - Liverpool yaw! Haha.
Ajim - Futsal jom! Ajar ak men bola plz.
Nyot - Adek ku! Jgn ngigau lg tau.
Mad - Hang terbaek. Hj. Mad satu hari nnti k.
Toto - Sabar jew psl laptop 2 k. Jge brg elok2.
Wan Long - Pnjangkn lg diri ko tuh. Haha!
Arddri - Remember me as Nyot not Chot laa 'perut'.
Najib si PM - Sowie sbb susah utk ak igt nme ko ape.
Abid - Ak siyesly tkut dowh dgn ko. Haha.
Kazar - Terbalikkan nme ko dh jd Razak. Huhu !

Kt sesape yg xde tuh, bkn lpe kt korg. Tp, tgh blur beb. Nnti ak update lg klu ak teringt kt. Ap2 pun, korg yg terbaek! Love u guys!

Bosan Day.

Holla. Yesterday, I've posted about what we really2 did in the library. Today is a very contrast day, which mean that today is a fuckingable boring day. Igtkn arinie leyh ar nk taip surat rasmi nk send kt HEA UiTM regarding yg ak nk quit. Haa! Nk recap blk ap yg terjadi smlm. After lpak2 kt library, we went to Taman Dimensi to berbuke puase bersame-same. Nk ajk ramai2 pun xleyh gak. Tp yg ad kt situ, Doy, Shad, Wan Long, Jang, Madi & Tina, Faris & Azza, Rais & classmates diew. Itu jew. Wlupun xrmai, tp leyh dikatekn agk meriahlaa. Huhu! Urm, sepulangnye ak dr berbuke td, ak trus shoot ke blok disebabkn kekenyang perut & xlarat sgt. Tpat pkul 11.30 mlm. Student TESL mengadakan meeting tergempar. Ntah psl ap pun ak tatau. Tp ak, shad & wak malas nk msuk cmpur. Tp topic utamanya, UNITY. Haha! Tgh best2 class rep. class msing2 berucap. Ak pun menyelit dgn mmbuat announcement tergempar yg leyh mnjadi antara ucapan plg hot and mengejutkn kpd mereka2 sume. Haha! Ak dh umumkn yg ak nk quit! Tadaa. Yg bestnye, dorang sme tharu. Hmpir2 melelehkn air mate ak. Ak agk seronok berade bersame TESLian & ak akn igt mereka! Uwaaaa.

Library Hari Ini.

Holla, haha. Arinie, ak telah memonteng kelas BEL311. Sorry yea En. Saini Jaalam. Haha. Disebabkn ak tlah memonteng BEL311, ak pun pergi laa ke library utk menghabiskn mase2 ku. Hajat nk wat assignment sket. Tp aleh2 jmpe lak bdak2 TESL. So, ak dgn shad tlah menolong mereka dgn questionnaire mreka. Haha. Disebabkn terlampau kebosanan, Shad tlah diserang pnyakit yg dipanggil, "Syndrome Article Writing." Haha. Die tlah menulis sesuatu yg bertajuk " Mari Mencapap " yg akan diterbitkan dlm buku :

LIBRARY HARI INI.

by. Prof. Madya Datuk Dr. Shad Ahmad Doy

- Nana telah dikenalpasti sbg "HEROGA" yg bermaksud Hero Gadis.

- Doy tgh menunggu awek masscomm yg namanya tidak diketahui. Ahahaha.

- Doy tlah mencapap dgn meng"ON9"kan myspace kt library.

- Makcik cleaner bertudung pink tlah mengorat Doy.

- Azza a.k.a awek Tachap kelihatan sgt hot dgn "belon air"nye.

- Statement Doy... " tgk Final Destination...mati kne sedut dlm lubang swimming pool "

- Awek pkai cardigan merah berfree hair cntik woo.

- Badawi lalu di belakang Doy dan aku.

- Shad bg survey kat awek berjubah itam dgn penuh macho.

- Shad & Doy bersetuju bhw Pidot merupakan rakan yg terbaek.

- Badawi tlah menggangu psangan yg sdang hangat bcinta dgn questionnaire.

- Shad & Doy menyiapkan artikel Library Hari Ini...tetapi Khalis mengajak Badawi mengacau org bercinta.

Konklusi :

" xde org yg study dlm library. byk org mencapap dan byk jugak yg buat keje xtentu hala. lg2 penulis (shad) yg xde keje smpai tlis bende2 mcm ini.

Sile dptkn artikel di atas yg akan mula dipasarkan pd Hari Raya Pertama di kedai2 runcit dan dobi berhampiran dgn rumah ketua kampung korang. Dapatknnye dgn harge RM7.50 bersamaan harge Winston Light 20. Terima Kasih.

futsal tiredness

Hola, it's been a long time since I post something new on this blog. Let see, arinie nk cite psl pengalaman berfutsal bersama rakan2 Level 3. Haha. For the 1st time, I didn't go back to KL this week and hell yeah, it's been great just to stay on weekends with this guys. They are very shocked that I was actually here at campus. So, I did went to play futsal with those guys and it's been a cursing day. Kite mulakn dgn sumpah seranah yg pertama! Haha! Ajim, si organizer telah menyewa 3bijik kete sewa utk diguna pakai oleh 15org student. Suppose dpt kete kul 3.30ptg. Tp, abg sewe kete tu sgtlah pig nye tlah menyerahkn kete yg pertama lmbt gle. Dpt 1st car dlm kul 4.40ptg. Agk2 korg la kn, dh brape byk pahale pose ktorg sme kne tolak sepanjang time 2. So, the 1st car yg di drive oleh Ruza, ditumpang oleh Nana,aku and Faris pun bertolak laa ke Klebang. Sepanjang jln lak traffic jam. Yela, dh dkat kul 5ptg. Org ofis dh blk keje, org nk bli juadah bbke lg. Sumpah seranah yg kedue lak, kete yg kedua yg sepatutnye di drive oleh Ajim, jahanam tepi jln. So, Nana tpakse wat pickup round. Smbil tggu dorg, kitorg yg dh ad kt futsal start dlu. Dgn pnatnye, ttbe leyh lak aku dehydration. Meleleh darah kuar ikut lubang idung. Termuntah muntah sbb trlampau lapa, ngantuk, panas. So, aku amek decision bebuke awl. Agk sedeyh laa. Lgpun dh mtk maaf kt kwn2 sme. Haha! Sesampainye smua geng2 kami, ktorg start maen laa. Agk best utk ak, sbb 1st time sepak2 bola dgn dorg. Walaupun aku nie seorang kaki bangku. Aku try gak maen. Haha! Selesai je maen, ktorang pun bbuke di ftsal dgn air2 tin. Then grak gi Nasi Kandar Pinang Besar utk melantak. Leyh thnla kesedapannye. Haha! Later, ktorang pun blah ar. Grak pulang ke kampus stelah Nana mmbuat 2 trip. Nk dijadikan cerita, kene tahan dgn pak polisi di 7Eleven Alor Gajah ats 2 kesalahan. 1. Overload kete kancil (ad 6org dlm kete tuh), 2. Slh masuk jln. Haha! Leyh lak brader polis 2 tnye kt ak, "Awak nie normal ke?" Yela, ak tdo dlm kete, kuar kete lak aku terhuyung hayang. Saket kaki. Haha. Time nk pulang kete sewe tu lak, Frankie nk try bwk kete. So, Nana & aku jd laa instructornye. Agk cuak la gak. Tp Frankie dh leyh master laa. Just nk kene improve care msuk gear dgn tkan clutch jee. That's all. Agk panjang la posting aku kali nie. See ya! Assalamualaikum!