not going anywhere .

For 2weeks, all that I've been waiting is for Friday, 19/03/2010 to come . I was so close to the date, then, everything that can cheer me up, brings me down to earth . Its more like smashing me down . I hit reality when I'm always dreaming of fantasy . I'm torn up . Left in despair and great frustration . Maybe luck has abandoned me . All of the plans and surprise plan had been set up, only to be crushed . I can't hide my frustration . This is just so unfair . I never been this disappointed in a long long long time . When I repeated "long" many times, it means soooo long . So, the reality is :

I'm just not going to Malacca . All that I could say, Fuck It !